Author: Fyodor Dostoevsky
Year: 2021 (1864)
Publisher: Modernista
Language: Swedish (translator Cecilia Borelius-Rohnström)
Some people
choose to be unhappy. Not because they are doomed by fate or overwhelmed by
circumstance, but because they cannot bear the vulnerability that joy and
connection require. For these people, happiness feels like weakness, and love
like exposure. The only emotion they feel safe expressing is resentment and
their most reliable source of comfort is to distribute that unhappiness
outward, like a contagion.
In “Anteckningar
från ett källarhål” (“Notes from the Underground”), Fyodor Dostoevsky gives
voice to one such man. The Underground Man, bitter, and obsessively
self-conscious, lives in voluntary isolation, sharpening his cynicism and
building elaborate justifications for his own misery. He is a man who has
turned away from the world not because the world has rejected him, but because
connection demands surrender, and surrender is unbearable.
He is not
simply a man without love. He is a man who cannot tolerate being loved.
While the
novel is often read as a philosophical precursor to existentialism, indeed Jean-Paul
Sartre cited it as an influence, what makes Dostoevsky’s short but dense work
so powerful is its psychological clarity. The Underground Man is not merely a
symbol or a theoretical construct; he is a living case study in emotional
dysfunction. His life is defined by a profound inability, and ultimately an
outright refusal, to love or be loved.
This is not
because love is unavailable to him, but because love requires vulnerability,
surrender, and an openness to grace, all things he equates with humiliation.
What emerges from “Anteckningar från ett källarhål” is a portrait of a deeply
damaged personality: a man whose need for control and pride is so consuming
that it obliterates his capacity for intimacy. The ultimate incel, if you wish.
“I swear,
gentlemen, that to be too conscious is an illness,”* the Underground Man
proclaims early in the novel. This diagnosis of himself is remarkably
prescient. The character’s hyperconsciousness, his habit of analysing every
motive, overthinking every emotion, and anticipating every possible humiliation,
aligns closely with what Søren Kierkegaard would call "the sickness unto
death": the despair that comes from being alienated from oneself. In
Kierkegaard’s view, despair is not simply suffering, but a state of active
self-estrangement, in which the self refuses to be what it truly is. For the
Underground Man, selfhood is not a project to be realised, it is a battlefield
on which he endlessly defeats himself.
In modern
psychological terms, we might recognise this as a narcissistic defence
mechanism in which vulnerability is so intolerable that it must be replaced by
control. His encounters with others are not opportunities for connection but
arenas for psychological warfare. His interactions with former schoolmates are
marked by bitterness and a fixation on perceived slights.
Most
tragic, however, is his encounter with Liza, a young prostitute who offers him
the possibility of tenderness. When she responds to his philosophical speech on
degradation with something like empathy, he becomes unhinged. What could have
been a moment of shared humanity, becomes an existential threat. Liza threatens
to see him, to treat him not as a freak or a failure but as a person. He cannot
allow it. He responds by humiliating her, handing her money in a moment that
reads like a deliberate reenactment of her life-trauma.
“But this I
can say for certain: though I did that cruel thing purposely, it was not an
impulse from the heart, but came from my evil brain.”*
What makes
this so poignant is that he knows exactly what he is doing. This tension
between insight and paralysis lies at the heart of Dostoevsky’s genius. The
Underground Man is not delusional. He is painfully self-aware. But rather than
using that awareness to change, he uses it as a weapon against both himself and
others. His failure to act, to connect, to seek forgiveness is filtered through
a philosophical defence of inaction. People with deeply entrenched cognitive
distortions will often reject positive experiences because they contradict the
internal narratives they have built. Such experiences threaten to shatter the very
cornerstone of their identity as outcasts and victims. The Underground Man
cannot accept Liza’s compassion because it violates the only truth he believes defines
him: that he is fundamentally unlovable.
What makes
Dostoevsky’s portrayal so unsettling is that this refusal of love is not
presented as a personal flaw to be overcome. It is presented as a choice. The
Underground Man chooses his isolation and nurses his misery. He would rather
suffer on his own terms than risk happiness on someone else’s. This is not the
story of a man who could not find love. It is the story of a man who saw love
coming and slammed the door shut. In doing so, he ensured that he would never
be humiliated. But also, that he would never be saved.
* English
quotes are from the Judith Boss translation at Project Gutenberg.